Anton Pierre Long Nursing Jornal

Anton was a difficult baby to look after as he is very colicky so called, he always wakes at night and cried. Sometime we wonder what went wrong? Could it be some... We brought colic medicines and use Holy Water too!

When Anton was 3 years old he still nursed many times at night, around 4 to 5 times!!
I have never sleep through more then 3-4 hours a night! I have no choice but to train him to just drink water instead or nursing, but he still woke a few times a night!! Look like it is just his pattern. As my mother told me the four of us woke a lots too at night when we were young. She never get to sleep much too when we were young and never get to nap cause she got to do housework since she was staying with her in law! So this is motherhood for her and for me.

When he turns 4 years old (Nov 2009) the waking has reduced to around 2 to 3 times and nursing about 1 to 2 times only at night.

Finally, around March 2010 he has started to sleep through the night more often and nursing only 1 time, even though there aren't much milk left he still insist to latch on! He will get angry if he couldn't see me in the morning and remind me not to go to his brother's school for volunteer work but to be home for him.

It is sad to not able to provide the milk, the white blood cell, the protection/antibody but this breastfeeding journey was not an easy one. I almost give up many times and long time ago. The feeling of breastfeeding this time round was always feeling uncomfortable, extremely tiring and stressful. Maybe I was not positive, I suspect some hormone maybe missing, you know during breastfeeding you produce a 'love/relaxing' hormone, but this time round I was not feeling that happy.

Maybe he is just one difficult child (some said difficult mean smart ha ha) to handle. But for the love of him and his health, I did my very best. I feel sorry for the nights that I just loose it on him and wanted to give up, hope this negative feeling will not affect him, please forgive me, my weaknesses.